Consider This:

Live perpetually in the desire that you will receive the best that life can give today, that all things will work together for good to you now, and that everything necessary to the promotion of your highest welfare will come in abundance during the great eternal now.

Make this desire so strong that your heart and soul are in it with all the power of life, and let every present moment be deeply inspired by the very spirit of this desire.

The result will be that the best of everything will constantly be coming into your world, and everything that may be necessary to make your life full and complete now will be added in an ever increasing abundance.

Excerpt from the book; 'The Ideal Made Real' by Christian D. Larson (1912)

This is a book I highly recommend for people who, as I once was, are trying to figure out what the hell is wrong.